Friday, March 15, 2013

2013

Been so long I never see your face, try to be strong...

What should I talk about?
I graduating next spring 2014. I think so. This year I have my own room, own space, and own life. I do everything alone, sometime I felt lonely but sometime I felt good. The closer friend of mine in US, already back to Malaysia. This make me feel bored. What to do, friend will never stay by your side forever. As usual, one come one left. I really miss Malaysia, I miss the foods, my friends,...

Stay in US does not make me who I am but it has pushing me to the reality.
This is life, face it.

Friday, March 23, 2012

Unknown

Flashing all kind of stuff.
Things change slowly, I still don't dare to make the step. What am I doing?
Know what good for life, but I can't put down the past "friends, memory, emotion, attitude". Sound silly!
When start looking others moving forward to the great step, I'm start wondering why am I still here. Evolution- people change in different way in different time and place. :(
How it should be? Where's all the confident?

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Should be a blank

How can we aspect others to really understand us. People mention bout selfishness, loneliness... What do they actually think bout them self? If u wan people to change something, how bout just change own self. Whatever... I don't care :)

Life here.. Still fine, I still can handle.
Recently I have a strong feeling toward what I think, I can't do any change if my physical don't change, the reality of life. Trying hard ##

Monday, February 13, 2012

Valentine day

today should be special to all the couple,
to single should be special too.
what i'm thinking right now,
i'm at US, solo,
is same like a single, but in a relationship,
can't step on single life and enjoy the single party on valentine,
but i'm not celebrating valentine day... lalala...
not a big deal,
to recover all this unsolvable thinking,
i planned to get my self a valentine present,
make my own valentine :)
i used to think of buying FURLA CANDY bag,
but at last i decided to get my self a iphone 4s with free-contract! :)
nothing much to think about! since i really want a iphone :)
will get it online! :) this is call life!! :)

words for my darling!
HAPPY VALENTINE DAY darling!
wish u have a nice one with your work! hahhaha...
although we can't celebrate this year and on following year,
i believes there are more valentine which we can spend together.
love you! muacxx!

Friday, February 10, 2012

情人节

减肥计划还不是很稳定,
还需要再坚持一些.....

这几天功课,考试都一起来... 压力又来了
希望一切都快点过完....

情人节快到了,
很多人都在想要买什么东西给自己爱的人,
在这个同时,让我发现到,原来很多男人对自己爱的人都很有心,
都一直在想要送些什么,
虽然他们有些不知要怎么表现,不过他们都很用心去找和想。
这都是女方看不到的事。

再说.....


:)

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

狠下心减肥!

现在肥到就要有八十公斤的我, 认真的又要减肥了。
咳~  希望会成功吧!
今天开始我每天都要逼自己post blog,
写下每天吃的食物,
这都是为了一直提醒自己,只有减没有增加!
“不变要等几时变”!

我要认真的读书认真的减肥认真的赚钱!

美国也没什么好吃, 所以也是一个机会让我瘦下!

对自己狠一点,以后的路容易走一点。

Friday, January 13, 2012

First day in US

 11-1-2012 (11.35pm)

KLIA - NARITA
waited 8 hours,
NARITA - MINNEAPOLIS
waited 3 hours
MINNEAPOLIS - PITTSBURGH
time here 18:18

after my friend fetch me, we went for FIVE GUYS,
i didnt eat, too tired after all the flight and transit.
back to my friend place, 
bath den sleep.

morning 4.30am woke up...
cry for like 4 hours,
hahaha... i miss my darling...
when to sleep again... 
woke up and is snowing!!! hahahaahaha...
cook mee, ate it.
and i'm on9 now! hahahah....
nothing much... cuz i'm still waiting for my friend back from NEW YORK! 
need to do some shop with her.
miss you all F & F! 
and my beloved darling!!

:)

gift and wishes from everyone!


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 present from all my beloved friends..
instax camera from my darling,
surprise from him! :)

 brushes!! from bun & pei yee...
they gave what i want!
:)

 my best sister since high school form 2,
cc was my classmate,
and dee was someone i knew outside my class...hahaha
<3 you ladies!

 from my darling!
i LOVE you so much!!!
i will bring more photo back! 

 there are few gift from others too..
not enough time for me to take photo!
iphone case from Albee,
Da Vinci lip gross from Grace..

 from xuan- Mr moo... hahaha
there is a cert below...






thank you everyone..my brosis! :)

thank to my family,
they gave more than they have..

thank you very much!
love all of you!

Saturday, January 7, 2012

unbelievable

There is a RED line between someone or something,
which you can't overstep it,
when you actually did it,
the WAR start from you!
i don't care who you are!

i'm playing with my own roles,
i'm doing something that i need to do as a student right now,
i'm ignoring the unfair, not being love, and those unnecessary issue, problem from others,
and all this were told by all the adult! I just follow and do it!!
although i'm following, people still bring the WAR out!! 

preparing my self to leave here and continue my study at US.
any problem if i spend more times with my friends?
since every time i'm at home, i'm not happy at all,
get scolding, unfair treating, drama create by all the human at home, specially the shouting part is the most pissed off part!
as a adult you already failed to communicate and care for your children, 
and still, you do not let your children find their own ways to make self happier and stop thinking about the unhappy part brought out from you.
the most disappointed part, you don't even care when i told you i don't have any money for a lunch or dinner,
when i ask for some cash, you just told me, you do not have any, but you and them went out for Japanese food. 
I won't ask money from you, if i still have another way to get some, because i know what i will get after asking, opps! is not asking, is after begging! 
 some scold and your f*face! 
3 months ago until now without a single cent from you!! 
and you keep telling everyone, i spent alot... really ridiculous!!

more to go...
but i don't feel like continue...
hmmm......
what i can say is, accept the fate! 






Sunday, December 18, 2011

speaking out loud

great, all shit crashing together and expose together.
i know what i need to do, and i do not need anyone to keep reminding me.
you guy are making things go worse! 
can't you people just show your support or help???
damn it!

this few days...
i started wondering about my self, am i that stupid to believe and trust people,
or people just treat me like a stupid, who can't hear and see what they're trying to do?
friends, specially you! you knew who you are,
this isn't the first, second, third, forth or fifth times..... ISN'T!
why can't you STOP spoilling my reputation?
izzit really build your reputation by spoiled mine?
and SECOND YOU,
what so fun about switching MINE confidential around?
is this the way you treat your own friend?
or you just nothing to do besides sharing my things around to set up your own friendship by corrupt mine?
stop acting like you don't know what i'm saying!!
you know what you're doing, there's KARMA!

I do not need a person who name her/his self as my friend,
when the person don't even understand what the meaning of friend! 
if you're reading this, FUCK YOU & FUCK OFF!


Regards,
Jessica Chen.

Saturday, November 19, 2011

emo days...
leaving msia soon..
next week must get my visa done..
my flight will before 17th of Jan.
i try my best to spend time with everyone of you..

specially you..


Monday, November 7, 2011

simple english explain all..

money is really a big issue for me,
i thought people will try to help out,
hard time, when i really need help, i found out, that only me my self is able to help my self..
@@ how come??
dear relative....
do u still remember what u had told me before??
u said : " when i really need your help, you will try help?"
i asked more than twice, ur ans were disappointed me!!
you made me believed, in this world there is nothing so call 亲情 when come to money issue!
you didnt even show me, you try to help me on this!
that is the worst part!! my tear really dropped down, for the ways you had answered.
because i never thought the person will be you.
..........
JESSICA CHEN!!!
NO ONES BORN FOR OTHERS,
OTHERS HAVE RIGHT FOR NOT HELPING YOU!!
NO HARD FEELING!!
BE MATURE & FORTITUDE!
.........
..........

wake up and forget bout it! 
Good Night!


Thursday, October 20, 2011

something without answer

i thought photo can explain everything,
but not the truth behind.
decided to write more... with words..

weeks past...
thinking back for the past few years,
it reminded me, i used to use the phrase "do without regret",
that is why i try not to make any mistake for my life,
but here come...
things that i thought is nothing, is something.
didn't get hurt at the beginning, but at last.
i don't even know when it started and when  will be end.
ruined.

trying not to post "emo stuff" here at the beginning..
but it is life.... 
we will not be the same always...

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Sydney final :) - MASUYA/tarongaZOO/

thank to my aunt and uncle for bringing me along to SYDNEY.
really enjoyed and appreciated.
:)




they have a great Japan foods here... 
 MASUYA - SYDNEY




needed 2 table to placed this wooden ship.
:)



FRIED OYSTERS
晚餐里, 我觉得最好吃的!
ordered more than 3 plates of this. :)


 claypot tempura udon..
enough for 5 persons eat. :)
很大涡。



 Taronga zoo - Sydney
walked part of the zoo,
after kangaroo, we went back for breakfast & lunch.
:)
 views of the zoo..






 here  we go.... KANGAROO...




after zoo, we went to fish market... :)
 salad prawn

 


 cute girl, she understood every instruction gave by her mom. :)




 i think this shop is at somewhere near kent st.
they actually name their shop 吃喝睡! haha


 last day before we left Sydney.
back to the same place have our dinner. :)
我的姨丈知道我喜欢吃龙虾,所以在离开前一晚又带我去吃 :)


 mini ice-cream...!!!!
超好吃的!

 back to HONG KONG.

 好吃!
 the last night at HONG KONG ..
went to wong kok alone... :)
shopping :)

 *wanted



before boarding... ate this. :)